Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Got politics?


Delivery Room One

Midwives here run the show!  (Woot! Woot! Loud applause and deep respect!) Through the course of a normal delivery, there are no docs in the delivery rooms to assist, no respiratory therapists, no baby nurses, no body else but the laboring woman and the midwife.  They are excellent at what they do; they are competent, capable, loving  (in their stern sort of Caribbean way) & know how to get down to business.  Their laughter and joy allow one to move with ease through these hot and humid days.  I admire these women and hope to wander with such confidence one day.  Necessity is the mother of invention...

These midwives each have their own proverbial bag of tricks.  I want one of these! Much like Hermione Granger’s magic handbag, holding infinite bits and pieces to navigate one’s way through these variations of normal.  When infinite meets the end of the road, the docs will come to check out the situation and to offer additional guidance and support to what everyone hopes to be a healthy end.  And when it does, the happy dance that ensues motivates a rather large smile on my face.  I have yet to encounter anything other than the happy dance and do not look forward to the alternative.

The docs here are either ‘juniors’ (those that have not yet specialized) or “consultants” (some have been practicing here for a lifetime according to these ladies). They all “round” on these ladies throughout the week.  In addition, they see them “immediately” postpartum to check on their well-being, particularly if there are variations from normal.  The midwives and docs get along well and seem to have a very collegial relationship, I dare say even friendly and familiar.  I envy them.  I hope there is a day that I get to experience this in my own professional world, from a place of collaboration and mutual respect.

However, the autonomy of the midwives here is being threatened, as is the normalcy of pregnancy and childbirth.  I get a sense the proposed changes are coming from some higher up place and will impact the way that these women can care for the women in their ward.  Interventions and procedures that have historically been reserved for pathology are being considered for routine admissions.  Non-stress tests, for example, typically utilized to monitor fetal well being in the face of things like post-dates pregnancies, trauma, decreased fetal movement and other such concerns, are routinely performed on all low-risk, healthy admissions to the labor ward.  Some of these midwives have some very strong opinions about the way things are changing. I cannot blame them.

Discussions on the ward of creating a midwives association are reminiscent of those that have gone rounds in the states.  There is a “Midwifery Interest Group” here on St. Lucia and, in its infancy, is rather small in numbers.  “We don’t need a GROUP, we need and ASSOCIATION!!!” This coming from a woman whose passion is clear and commitment to autonomy, deep.  It is this kind of spirit, matched with her brilliance, that will motivate change. 

In other news...

I feel like a broken record here but have to give a shout out to the midwives and Sisters on the ward that have so warmly welcomed this brown eyed stranger replete with beaming (and perhaps foolish at times) smile, into their world.  I have been made to feel like part of their team, to enmesh myself into the weave of their fabric. 

They look out for me, urging caution while trying to avoid inspiring a riot of fear in my being.  Concern for my personal safety is their highest priority, followed second by their desire for my to have an abundant learning opportunity while I am here. These both saddled with a reminder that I must find time for “leisure” while I am in St. Lucia as the beauty is abundant.  All work and no play...

I take it all to heart.  “Work” in the hospital during the daylight hours, for now.  Most evenings are spent with a farewell to the day on the rooftop terrace, or in the pool (or both) communing with the bats as they pass swiftly by trying to navigate a dip or two while effectively navigating a path to avoid a collision with my head as I bob along in the cool water.

Looking forward to enjoying a mango or three soon enough, they are too green as yet but are blushing.  The bats have beaten me to the hanging fruit already. The trees are robustly full and promise (or perhaps tease) a deluge before I depart.  What a bounty it will be, if not for me then for the ladies who will be arriving here in May after I leave.
Tantalizing treats!


Thank you all for your continued support, donations and enthusiastic delight! 

Signing off in gratitude!

Rodney Bay



Sunday, April 1, 2012

All Fools' Day

                                             On the wall in the newborn room.


Day one was rather enjoyable.  Aside from the fact that they were not expecting me (surprise! surprise!), we all made the most of a rather busy day.   It’s moments like the many that I experienced today that remind me, not so gently, that I live in the lap of luxury.

One of the nurse/midwives that I was with today pointed out that they do with what they have, and what they do not have they’ve always done without so why would they need it?  Point taken.  They DO so well without all the amenities and accoutrements that I take for granted in the states. They use each and every piece of everything in ways that I had not previously considered. 

These ladies are understaffed and oftentimes there is one midwife for three, four or more clients in the delivery rooms.  I witnessed this first hand today & was taken aback by the efficiency and speed at which these women work.  The other side of that coin is that there are things they understand warrant more careful time and attention, and by default the new mothers sometimes get less than the best.  It’s what must be done when you are one person and you have four women who are sitting at six centimeters; a multip, one grand multip and two prims (first time mother).  We would all do well to learn to do more with less.

The women share 4 to a room while in labor and postpartum as well.  They are moved to a delivery room when the time comes and rest on a bedpan after the baby comes until the midwife can tend to them & repair what seem to be fairly routine episiotomies.   Meanwhile the babies are set to rest two or three to a warmer to keep one another company until their mother is wheeled back to her shared space at which point she may choose to breastfeed her baby.  The most glorious thing about the shared rooms is the brilliant breeze that flows through as if 50 fans are blowing, and with this heat and humidity it’s better than AC.

After a cesarean birth today, a nurse & I took a baby into the nursery for safe keeping (about 24hours) until the mother can look after her baby on her own.  Women who have had “normal” deliveries stay on average 2-3 days (if space allows), no idea how long women stay post cesarean.  The nursery is very small, and the “NICU” even more so, with even smaller babies.  I think about Doernbecher Children’s Hospital and shudder to imagine how the surroundings here would be perceived.  These folks here have done an amazing job with these preemies and micro preemies; cards a plenty attest to this with words of deep gratitude and heartfelt warmth for the care their tiniest of tiny received.

I know that this day is just the tip of the iceberg; I am so delighted by the women I got to share time with today.  They stepped up to show the ‘fair skin’ around and to orient me to the ways in which they operate with smiles and generosity to boot.  The women in labor allowed for me to share in their experiences without question and offered a smile where none was needed.  I stand to learn a lot here, to be humbled and am very anxious to soak it all up.   I'm looking forward to tomorrow, my second “first” day.

Thumb-sucking in mom's absence...

Friday, March 30, 2012

Two daze down



The sun has set on my second day here in St. Lucia.  

My journey here was without excitement, entirely uneventful and smooth as can be.  I like it that way.  Though to be honest, my final flight from San Juan to Castries catapulted me back into a time I’m not sure I’ve ever encountered in my waking life.  I somehow felt as if I had been thrown into the movie, Romancing the Stone.  It was reminiscent of their trip to Cartagena. Antiquated...comes to mind.  Regardless, I arrived safely and in one piece.

I have been warmly welcomed to this island by all I have crossed paths with.  (Some more warmly than others....) I am deeply grateful for the kindness of strangers here. I hope that the warmth and generosity of these people and this island will be with me for the duration of my stay.

I spent some time in Castries yesterday, wandering about, taking it all in and sweating every ounce of H20 out of my body.  It’s a city that reminds me of San Jose, Costa Rica, though much smaller and with some greater measure of disrepair.  In days past, banana plantations were a large part of the industry that supported the people of St. Lucia.  As it turns out, bananas have picked up a “sickness” in recent years and the people here are now supported by tourism brought in by cruise ships & planes alike.  Yesterday happened to be a “cruise ship day” (During the season, 5 days a week one might find at least 2-3 in port) and I witnessed, first hand, the dizzying number of sun-kissed tourists scurrying around to fetch this or that before their ship departs.

I was given some warning from a local woman that the number of young women here having babies is frightening.  I was still taken aback by the number of teen mothers wandering about wearing their stunning young infants and newborns.  I am still trying to get an accurate pulse on the birth rate for St. Lucia & feel that my observation was but a small sampling.  I’m looking forward to what the days ahead have in store.  Again, I ask that whatever comes be gently offered.

I begin ‘work’ on Sunday and have a covey of butterflies to keep me company.   I have no idea what to anticipate other than showing up at 8 am, in white scrubs, with my pregnancy wheel, measuring tape & stethoscope in hand. 

(I was also reminded today that the closer you are to the equator, the less time you can spend in the sun without at least several layers of sunscreen.)

More to come.  Thanks for tagging along! 

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Gratitude


Sitting here pondering how hard it has always been for me to ask people for “stuff,” for “things,” for money, among other things.  It’s a familiar place for me to reside...that place where it so much easier for me to give than to receive.  You know, that uncomfortable place that feels needy, or imposing?  It’s probably why I have only just recently reached out, as I have known about this trip for some weeks now

Setting pride aside recently, I stepped out on a limb to ask for support, for some assistance in making this journey to St. Lucia one that feels contributive and meaningful. I have been pleasantly surprised by the delight I have encountered since asking.  

I have been reminded of a few things:

1.     It takes a village.  Some folks have offered what they perceive to be “small” donations.  Well folks, each penny adds up!  Each offering amasses into something larger & builds momentum when added to the mix of bits and pieces.  I cannot do this thing called life alone.  I am deeply grateful for each and every offering of support-emotional, physical and/or financial.  Thank you!
2.     I cannot get what I do not ask for.  Hard as it may be, I encourage you all to reach out to ask for what it is that you need & desire.  You never know what or who awaits the other side of your courageous request.
3.     The art of surrender is vividly poignant in my life right now.  I have counseled so many women to do just this throughout their childbearing process.  Surrender plans, expectations, judgments, pride, and that sense that we have any “control” about how things will unfold.  I’m working on surrendering.

May this journey be full of occasions for me to find growth (gently please), to be offered reminders of why midwifery is what I choose (or is it the other way around?), to find a deeper sense of center AND to find more joy among the moments that make up my days.  

I’m looking forward to help usher earthside babies in another locale, with some new perspective on pregnancy & birth.  I am so delighted to be able to embrace this opportunity and am grateful to all those who have encouraged me to do so. 

Excited to share with you all the first installation of donations and supplies made possible by donations already received.  Not so sure if the picture is worth a thousand words... It does, however, illuminate what I have already gathered in the way of supplies to donate to Victoria Hospital.  Thank you!




In no particular order, included in the above photo: 24 receiving blankets, 1 fetoscope, 6 tape measures, 4 amniocots, 5 pregnancy wheels, 2 suture sets, 1 infant stethoscope, 1 adult stethoscope, 6 pieces vicryl suture, 3 pieces silk suture, 150 sterile gloves, sterile lubricant, tourniquets, 3 cord clamps, 15 maternity pads, three digital thermometers, 25 chux pads, 14 newborn diapers, 10 infant combs, 20 bottles baby shampoo, 2 peri bottles, 4 newborn hats, 4 surgical blades, ball point pens and one latex-free bag & mask resuscitator.




Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Welcome!

I'm here to share the bits and pieces of an adventure that I will be soon be embarking upon. An adventure that I anticipate with great delight and gentle timidity. Thanks for joining me! It is my intention to share with you all what it is that I encounter along this journey with a depth of spirit, integrity, humility and maybe some humor along the way, tho I've never been the comedian in the crowd.
I haven't been overseas in....well let's just say WAY too long. My passport is much to shiny for my liking and I find that I am all to ready to settle into a sense of comfort and routine. So, I guess there is no better way to switch it up a bit than to head to where the sun shines hot all day, the ocean warmly welcoming and the Caribbean babies abound.
I have an amazing opportunity to spend 5 weeks with the midwives and their "patients" at Victoria hospital in the capital city of Castries, St. Lucia, West Indies. My adventure begins with fervor on the 27th of March and will carry me through to May 2nd at which point I return to the states to let the rest of my midwifery education and experience unfold in ways I cannot yet conceive of.
I am hopeful that my time away will be fruitful in mind, body & spirit. That I return with a renewed sense of self, a deep commitment to integrity moving forward and an unshakable belief in the competence of my skills as the emerging midwife I am unfolding into.
Deep, deep gratitude for those that have held space for me along this journey, for those that continue to encourage me through dark moments, those who revel in my joy and those who believe in me.
~Merka

P.S. If you are called to do so, please check out my widget, to the left there, and share as you are willing and able. Money raised will assist in supporting the financial needs to make this journey happen on a variety of levels. I will update you all on funds raised and the donations made possible by such generosity.